So at exactly 5dp5dt (@1pm yesterday) I gave in & went to CVS got a FRER & POASed. My DH was working this weekend(1st or 2nd time in the 5 yrs we've been married- he NEVER works on the weekend!!!) & I was dying for him to overanalyze it with me. There was the faintest of faint lines. You had to tilt it, move it around & get in good light to see almost a "shadow" of a line. When it was in the inital time frame....the 1st 1-3 min. it was a little darker but then faded away to more of a shadow. I have now started to describe it as the "delusional" line.
I also decided to do a $tree one but I didn't see a thing! Several hours later (when my internet pkg full of HPTs came in) I also did one of those & there was nothing!
So, I was meeting DH & his family for dinner. SInce we were meeting up at the resteraunt I proceeded to bring my HPT with me in the car. When arrived I texted DH to come out & help w/the kids (I didn't want his parents to see it) and made him analyze the HPT right there in the car. He said "Ummm...neg." and I was like "look closer!!!" and he moved around and I asked "do you see that?" and he said "yeah...kinda...does that count?". I beamed!! I was over the moon!!! I didn't think any other human being could see the Delusional line except for me!! I smiled all through dinner!
So, this morning I was ready to use another FRER & prayed that it would be darker. At 7am. (after peeing all night long!!!) I POASed and it was darker. I ran & woke up DH and made him look & he saw it right away!! It did get a little bit lighter but it is STILL visible that there are in fact two wonderful lines. So, technically I was not yet 6dp5dt. That would be at 1pm. So I was thrilled!!
Later today around 2pm(so 6dp5dt now) I couldn't help myself & tried an internet one. It had a very faint line which I am excited about b/c I got no line from it at all yesterday no matter how you held (trust me I tried to find any little hint of a line!)
I can barely breathe & this morning in the bathroom I started to cry. Could this be it? Could I really have a daughter? It just seems so unreal. I know this is exactly what I want but it seems like it could all fade away in a blink of an eye. That is why I am trying so hard to just be thrilled that TODAY I have a little girl (maybe more) growing in me!!! A daughter!!!
My Beta is on Wed & today is Sun so I'm glad I only have to go through 2 full days and then at 8am on Wed. I will get my Beta. I will also get a Beta on Friday.
I still just can't believe it. I remember with my last cycle, going through peestick after peestick, searching for any type of line I could find and couldn't find a thing. Everyday was sadder. I dreamed of getting a faded pink line & getting to post it and today I have!
I pray that everyone on this board will get their day to post their BFP! Because although I am beyond excited I am still very sad & upset for some of my cycle friends that didn't make it this far. I'm still praying for you guys!!